8 weeks

We spent last much of last night at Southwest Mercy's Emergency Room after I started bleeding. Since I am only 8 weeks pregnant I could not go to the labor & delivery side of the hospital, but they were able to do an ultrasound to determine the baby was in my uterus and not eptopic. The doctor couldn't see a heartbeat and said it looked more like 6 weeks. After almost 5 hours of waiting, blood tests, IVs, and doctors I was put on 5 day bedrest and ordered to get into my primary doctor as early as possible. They basically could not determine anything of what was going on for certain, but did tell us the possibilities.

We got into Kaiser this afternoon for a formal ultrasound, where I was also told the baby did not look 8 weeks, and still, there was no heartbeat. I got a photocopy of the ultrasound pictures, they are keeping all the originals to watch the growth. I go back every couple days now for blood tests and ultrasounds to insure that my hormone levels are growing at the rapid rate they should be. Next appointment is on Wednesday. They couldn't tell us anything for sure either.

The doctor said the bleeding could stop and I could go on to have a normal pregnancy. That even though by the books I am 8 weeks, the baby could have other ideas in mind and be growing at a slower pace or my body's schedule is a little out of whack and indeed only be 6 weeks. Or the baby isn't growing right and I am miscarrying.

We are incredibly scared and in the dark right now, I am trying my best to stay calm and rest as we wait this out. I am not up for any phone calls as I will probably turn into an emotional wreck talking about all this, but we could use a lot of prayers...this baby already means the world to us.